Friday, November 6, 2009

I did something tonight I didn't want to....

a lady who used to be in my Sunday school class lost her little girl this week to complications from leukemia. Tonight was her visitation. I cannot begin to put into words how desperately I wish there were not the need for a visitation or funeral service for a sweet little 5 year old girl. My heart is literally broken for this family. I cannot imagine the pain this loss has caused them. And yet....

We know that Maddie is in Heaven now playing and singing with Jesus. No more chemo, no more hospital visits, no more painful sticks. How wonderful it must be for her.

I was reminded of two other funerals as I was waiting in the line to give her mom a hug. One was a flashback of just a couple of years ago to Mike's sister's funeral. I still miss Liz terribly at times. I still don't know what God's plan is there but I still trust that He has one and that it's a good one. He doesn't need my input to make a good plan. Trust me, He's reminded me of that more often than not. The other funeral took me back several more years to my freshman year in high school, 1986. A good friend of mine died from leukemia that spring. We had gone to school together from Kindergarten on. Our little community was rocked and left hurting. I didn't understand what Heather had done that God would punish her so. You see, I didn'thave a faith in Christ at that point and didn't realize that she wasn't being punished, but rewarded.

God certainly knows the number of our days. He also knows the good plans He has for those who love Him. I just pray He has easier plans for me.

2 comments:

Nana said...

And just go and hug them, don't even have to say anything, just be there for them. When they are ready to talk they will remember you being willing to be there during the hard times.
Of course, we don't need to know God's plan, just knowing he has one and knows all things is sufficient for us. That also doesn't mean we don't hurt or feel lost at times.
Keeping the family in our prayers.

www.msmoore said...

just say that if they want to talk you are there for them
We will keep them in our prayers